Standing ovation

My father loves me ;'(

2012-01-29T20:22:00.000-08:00

My father loves me :'( nuuuuuuuu
These few months have been really miserable.
I decided to go to India,not to go,go and the cycle repeats.
I was about to give up on Dentistry & India due to a few reasons but my primary concern is of course,money. Hmm... I come from an average family and to actually have my father forking out about 250k for this course is a bit insane.. I feel the pain because it's my father's hard-earned money.I don't want him to use up all his savings just to pay up for my education.And worse still,I am the eldest in the family and still have 3 more siblings after me !!! So, I kind of decided to do Law at ATC and went on to tell him last night. My dad said he can settle,told me not to worry and do what I like. SOBS :'( What a useless daughter I've been all this while!
My father's kind of a stingy person. He's quite stingy when it comes to food/travelling .. almost everything la! I know he must have felt the pain too when he has to fork out this much of money.. my father loves me ;'(

2012-01-05T07:43:00.000-08:00

Dentistry is left a dream.
May take me days,months or even years to digest this fact.
But I shall always remember that I was once an aspiring dentist.
Searched high and low for my true passion and interest.
How ironic,when I finally found it,not that I get to pursue it anyway.
Maybe some days I will have my children to mend this broken dream of mine.
Nope,blame no one but myself.
Life has always been unfair.
Not the first day I realized this.

2012-01-03T00:17:00.000-08:00

Stop animal cruelty,would you ?! STOP.
We used to keep our pet dog ( yes,only one ) till mum decided to send it away to the previous owner because apparently our neighbor couldn't stand the noise. It's a male Golden Retriever and as we know,Golden Retrievers are smart and friendly dogs. He could do all kinds of tricks i.e sit,shake hand,high 5.And truth be told,we still miss it till the very day wuuuu. My grandparents keep dogs all their lives. Currently,there are 3 in the house : Suki,Rocky and Kepoh. I don't know about you but to me,dogs are very cute and innocent creatures ! Whenever I see pics and articles about dog abuse,I try not to read/see it because I cannot imagine how these poor creatures are tortured and abused by some brainless idiots !!! My grandpa loves dogs very much and every day he tries to spend some time with the dogs,talking to them and patting them. He said they actually understand what we tell them. Please la. Just stop animal cruelty be it dogs,cats ( although I hate cats a lot ) but we're all God's creatures. Why can't we love each other as it is ?

2012-01-01T08:36:00.000-08:00

And a big shout out to my teacher too,Miss Khadijah Binti Yaakob.
She sent me such a touching message through Facebook.
God must have love me a lot.
I have so many guardian angels around me.

2012-01-01T07:43:00.000-08:00

Hi.
I think I might be going to India. (Read : MIGHT)
So,I thought I would just do Law and hence, I did a lot of researching these two days only to find out that many lawyers actually left practice after many years.But come to think of it,its not really what I want.You sue people and you make money but that won't make you feel good or me,at least.Like Ken Yung said,its "dirty" and there is no justice at all.
When mum said "just go",I was really taken aback.
She said,"I went to Kuantan on my own too last time".
HAHA ! MUMMMM !!! How can you compare India to Kuantan?
India is 1234567km away and what do I do if I miss home and family all of a sudden?
All kinds of questions running across my mind.
Will get Ken Yung to pass me the Law books tomorrow and if I don't like them then India is it.After all its only 2 years !! 2years !! That might be the hardest part of my life but if I have experienced the worst,what could have been worse than that :P

Hereby I would like to thank a few people here for their concern and love and these people,kind of influence my decisions you know !!
1.My grandparents :)
- I will be far away from them for 2 years but I will be back in Penang during the third year and this means more time for them !!! :) And my dogs too : Suki,Rocky and Kepoh. I love you three.When I make enough money in the future,I will get a big house and make them stay with me.

2.My parents

3.Relatives. Nothing like family time. I love them all.

4. Seniors ( Kak Siew Mei,Kak Lai Yee,Kak Janice )
-They are really a bunch of nice seniors !!!

5.Friends ( Faiz,Ken Yung,Choy,Melissa Lim,Magdalene,Anthony,Siew Huang,Jazzmin and Umesh )
- These are the people who I've been talking to/bugging these few days.Thanks for your support,friends!!! Jazzmin,thanks for your msg in Fb! I've read it before going out for dinner just now,will reply and catch up with you asap yar! Its really very nice of you to actually send me such comforting msg when you saw my blog.So touched.

Thank you so much all. Really appreciate what you all had done for me.

Happy New Year

2011-12-31T09:21:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year,everyone!
I texted all my aunts wishing them Happy New Year,telling how much I love them and that no matter what happens,far or near,we're always ONE BIG HAPPY FAMILY. I really love them :)
This new year,I do not have any resolutions because they never worked but I am looking forward to see a more cheerful and happier me in 2012. Do you miss the old me? I do.
I hope for nothing but to see my grandparents in good state of health all the way. They are the two people who love me the most in my life and I love them very very very much too !
And wow,I am already 20. Here's to a blessed 2012 !

THERE'S NO REHEARSAL IN LIFE

2011-12-30T04:00:00.000-08:00

So,I have decided NOT TO GO India anymore.
All this while I thought I am strong enough to go study in a foreign country where the environment there is worse than our country's on my own but as the date approached,I give up.I don't think I can cope with the stress of you know,far away from family and that place itself is just as bad.It's INDIA !!! I like Dentistry,I really like it.Doing it locally,is almost impossible.Dentistry in IMU freaking costs half a million ! HALF A MILLION ! Money doesn't grow on trees. Of course I am sad I am not able to do what I want to do,what do you think! On the brighter side,every career has its own pros and cons. I think I am taking up Law instead.I will try to like it.After all,life isn't much of a choice. My father insisted me to do it elsewhere rather than ATC. He wanted a more conducive environment ; more like a uni but I told him,its ok,doesn't matter what and where I study anymore. Cuz I do not care anymore ! Indeed !!!

IT'S SAD TO END UP WHERE I AM TODAY,REALLY SAD.IT'S A FAR CRY FROM WHAT I WANTED WHEN I WAS YOUNG ; TO STUDY IN THE UK AND ALSO THE REST OF MY PEERS. I BLAME NO ONE BUT MYSELF BECAUSE IN LIFE, " YOU GET WHAT YOU GIVE ". LIFE WORKS THAT WAY. HOW I WISH I COULD REALIZED THAT MUCH EARLIER IN LIFE.
WHAT COULD BE WORSE THAN LETTING YOUR OWN FAMILY MEMBERS ( GRANDPARENTS AND PARENTS ) DOWN TO SEE THE FIRST PERSON IN THE FAMILY TO STUDY ABROAD. THERE'S NO REHEARSAL IN LIFE. LASTLY,LISTEN TO YOUR PARENTS AND YOU WILL NEVER GO WRONG. EVERYTHING HAS ENDED.

Happy Winter Solstice Festival

2011-12-21T19:34:00.000-08:00

Happy Winter Solstice Festival to everyone out there,especially my readers ^_^
May everyone gets to celebrate with their loved ones :-)
Home-made tang yuen is of course,second to none.

A story.

2011-12-19T20:20:00.000-08:00

The younger me ; was / wanting to be one of these.

But something went wrong somewhere and I ended up like that.How many times in life things actually turn out the way we want them to be?

Bouncy balls.Why,you ask? Because after each fall,they bounce back harder than ever! ( Provided that you apply the right magnitude of force , but after some time it will come to a halt too caused by resistance and air friction , like how humans die a natural death )

A bungee trampoline isn't that bad either. One moment you're high up in the air and the next thing you know,you are on the ground already.

Someday ... I will soar like a G6 ! And probably receive standing ovation for this. :)

10 things I extremely miss about high school.

2011-12-14T21:05:00.000-08:00

My recent catch-up with a few old friends like Ken Yung and Faiz reminded me hell a lot of high school days !
Here I present you the top ten things I extremely miss about high school.

1.Fighting with Ken Yung in the class.
2.Attending prefects' camp.
3.Skipping assembly to gossip with Kirubha on the seventh floor. ( Nicholas,if you're seeing this,I am sorry :P you're late hehe! )
4.Attending tuition at Martin after school and our weekly chicken rice session together at Pudu for lunch.Oh myyy. Those days ... :(
5.Donning prefect's uniform and blazer.I still think it's one of the best looking uniforms ever!
6.Running relay on sports day.Its one of my fav event and will always be.We're the under-20 relay record holder babehhh !
7.Handling the assembly.
8.The forever insufficient and pathetic 20minutes recess time and so we had no choice,but to extend our own.And then got locked outside the class by Pn.Ruhanna ;S
9.Wearing my Leo vest.
10.Sneaking into the lift and paying 50cents when we got caught and also lectured when we bumped into Pn Sumarni once in a long while.

I reallly miss high school. Do you?
Papa Smurf said people change but only two things never change. Their names and the memories we had with them. Yeahhh ...

2011-12-09T06:56:00.000-08:00

Today is another day where I feel depressed,upset and extremely down.All the while I thought life is unfair.Since young,my relationship with my family has not been well and I grew up feeling lonely and insecured.Happy or sad,I am always alone.But I still made it through.I survived through all the drama(s) that took place during my rebellious years.I believe it will pay off till one point in life where I started slacking and did not do well enough to secure a scholarship.That moment onwards,life meant nothing to me.Nothing.Because the only thing that kept me living despite my past is gone forever.And I am gone too.Forever.Things got worse.I am stucked here,hating myself and life even more while some of my peers are enjoying themselves studying abroad.Some managed to obtain scholarships while others,needless to say,are lucky enough to be born in such affluent family.Happiness has a price and I can't afford to pay.

2011-11-20T06:50:00.000-08:00

"Interest is important when it comes to choosing a career".Discuss.
That was my written MUET exam question yesterday.
How ironic.
I was told that my application is "okay" and that I will be getting my offer letter soon when I called up PIDC the other day.
If this is true,I will make my way to India in March.
I don't know.
Suddenly I started thinking this is a wrong idea from the beginning.The whole thing is a wrong idea!!!! Going India is also a wrong idea !!!!!!
And truth be told,I don't feel like going to India.
I've always wanted to leave home and KL but when I really have to,I do not want to do it !!!!!!
Dentistry will take me such a long time.
I do not know if it'd be worth while.
In fact,I already feel tired even before I start.
I got no confidence in me.
JPA has sucked everything out of me ; life,happiness,confidence.
It has been 2 years already and yet I still can't forgive myself.

2011-11-03T12:22:00.000-07:00

So,a lil update from me.

If you're wondering whats going on in my life ...

Lately,I've been very busy preparing notes for my Chem intensive class which is due tomorrow.

Can't wait for it to end,really.

But seeing that I still have time to upload pics from my previous Malacca trip and to update u guys ..

Fine,actually I am not that busy la heh ! :P

Moving on,I was told by PIDC that our application status will be out by end of Nov/early Dec!

Chickened out*

If I don't get to do Dentistry,I might as well just be a housewife.

I don't think I will ever do any other jobs in the world.

Not that I like pulling people's teeth everyday but there're just so many other factors to be taken

into consideration when choosing a career.

Love life?

We're doing very good,thanks ! :)

At this point,I think my 6 years marriage plan might not actually materialize.SAD.

I did some calculation and found out that it is so expensive to get married !!

Oh no.Age is catching up.

Thats all from me guys.

Till then.Tcare.

Malacca October 2011 :) :)

2011-11-03T12:05:00.000-07:00

A' Famosa Fort :)

Overlooking the city of Malacca !

Windy afternoon :) fine weather

10 layers milli crepe at Nadeje. One of the best things in life :) Anyone has idea where can I find this in KL?

Sky blue cocktail without alcohol. Taste like Sprite :) Perfect to go with milli crepe

Camera shy woot ! Har har.

An evening at Portugese Settlement :) beautiful moments like this !

Wide blue sea :)

Dear :) :)

He said its like some stairway to Heaven Lol and I asked how sure are u that u're going to Heaven Lol

SMILE :) :)

Sky getting darker as the sun sets.

Dinner at Portugese Settlement :) :) some satisfying meal ! Kangkung belacan :)

Oh damn this was so damn good !!! Butter garlic prawn.I think this dish costs about 21bucks.

Sotong fritters :) :) crispy and light ! :) nice

Food & company. I have both !

Karaoke at Mahkota Parade before satay celup ! Lol all the way there for karaoke Haha.

Alvin & the chipmunks !!! Coming soon :) so darn cute !!!!

Heh heh heh satay celup time !!!!

Supper :) :) costs bout 20bucks :) ok la ntg special

the crowd and the queue. We lined up for about 20mins :)

Waiting to be served.

Me !!

Such a pleasant trip to Malacca :)
Truly enjoyed every moment of it :)
Jonker Street is still as happening as ever !
Just a lil bit disappointed as we had no choice but to skip Klebang coconut shake due to time constraint but overall,we enjoyed this trip to the extent.
I started to fall in love with Malacca more and more.
Even thought of settling down in Malacca when I start working.
Malacca's food is as good as ever.
Thanks,Adrian Lim for being such a good companion throughout this trip.You are always one ! Love you !!!
Can't wait for our third trip to Malacca for the Intrudu festival at Portugese Settlement.

2011-10-30T10:17:00.001-07:00

Need me to say more ?

Happy Halloween ! xx

Cameron Highlands 2011

2011-10-27T00:04:00.000-07:00

Weather was fine.So was traffic condition.

But it's still the same old Cameron Highlands which we have been so many times.

Bored,tired and sleepy.

Conclusion,I don't want to go to Cameron anymore.

Ok,maybe 2days and 1night is fine but definitely not one day trip !!

I reallly hate one day trip!

Its not much of a holiday.

Its all about rushing here and there and going back home so exhausted like a zombie.

I like this flower pic the best (: taken using my father's semi pro cam.Now I think I know why when people go for DSLR,they never come back for compact camera anymore.Cuz compact camera just suck a big time.Just like mine :(

Cactus oh cactus.

The famous T Cafe in Cameron Highlands.They are famous for their scone.Its located above Marry Brown in Tanah Rata.

As for lunch,we had spaghetti bolognese and cream scone.They serve two types of scone : cream and strawberry. Hmm.. the scone taste normal to me.So is the spaghetti.

Me and my sister in the cafe.

The stairs leading to the cafe.

Light pink rose.

A better one.I love rose,don't you?They're so beautiful. A rose,they say,is always pretty on the outside but not on the inside.

Strawberry.You know you're in Cameron when you see this.

Brought Suki along :)

Tea plantation :) Nice view !

Of more flowers

Old Smoke House.

And yeah,it's getting warmer up there!

Not that cold anymore,just so you know.

What else?

Got to be global warming lah.

Enjoy these photos.

Nothing much to say here.

Happy Deepavali !

Message from God

2011-10-23T10:39:00.000-07:00

Discovered this wonderful app in Facebook after seeing a few friends using it.

And to date,I am really amazed by it.

My first message from God left me speechless and in total shock.

As most of you know,I am in the midst of university application and stuff.

And selecting the course itself already gave me so much headache,trouble and chaos.

So,here is my first message from Him :

that decision is only wishful thinking until you take that first irreversible step. You can tell yourself that you have already decided, that nothing now can stop you, but if that step backwards is so much safer than step forwards, what will hold you true to your path when the going gets tough? Sometimes, the right thing to do is to take that first irreversible step, the one after which you cannot go back. And now, for you, is one of those times.

Jaw dropped when I saw this.

The following message :

that all is well. All is going according to plan. Trust that there is a bigger picture. Trust that life is unfolding as it should.

Praise the Lord.Amen.

And lately,I have this strong feeling of wanting to go back to God.

Started praying although I do not really know the right way of doing it.

And He came up with this :

that prayer is real only when done with your whole heart. Reserve the sound of your voice for other people. God hears only what's in your heart.

Jesus.Its as though God knows what's going on in my life.

I want to go back to God.

Can someone tell me where to begin with?

La Risata means laughter

2011-10-09T07:06:00.001-07:00

Oh-so-creamy-carbonara :)

I had pasta 3days in a row !!! :)
Friday was the worst,it got better yesterday and tonight was the best ! :)
We dined at this place called La Risata in Ampang.
Nice ambience.
Good service.
And excellent Italian food.
Most importantly,good company too.
Price wise,I think its not cheap at all and its even more expensive than Italiannies.Portion was smaller too.
Bill came up to 95bucks for the both of us.
Not so nice to see the other half paying so much just for dinner.

My vongole :) I love clams !!!! Need me to say that again?

So maybe we will go there once in a loooooong while?

Yummsss..

Italiannies,Curve

2011-10-08T10:01:00.000-07:00

Today,had our dinner at Italiannies,The Curve.
Been there a few times and to be frank,I wasn't really impressed with their food.The food is nice la but I expected more than that since the price is not cheap either.But I like their interior design and all.Gives me this really classic Italian feeling.Haha.
Anyway,took us almost 45mins to reach there !!! Phew ( There're other outlets in Gardens and 1U too but we still prefer The Curve cos there're so many things to see at the flee market during the weekend !! )
Curve is a nice place to hang out and to dine but its at the other end of the world for people like us who live in Cheras.
Had so much salmon tonight smoked salmon pizza,smoked salmon fettucini which I don't mind because I am a salmon lover especially smoked salmon !! :) When I was studying in HELP,I would always drop by Chillax just for their smoked salmon sandwich.
I brought my camera along but I did not manage to capture the pics of the food cos I was too busy eating :P which I think its a good thing also cos I don't want my blog to look like a food blog. It is still my personal blog. And will always be. Just that I like sharing good food. I have a few pics with me anyway. Well,save them for next time because the line's really down !
I was hungry and surprisingly,the food tasted good to me this time.
Ate at DIET Cafe on Friday.It was my first and LAST time there. The food was unacceptable and horrible.

Just in case you miss me :P

Thanks to those who recommend it on the net.

2011-10-02T10:18:00.001-07:00

我们因为爱而牺牲很多东西。也因为爱，我们哭，笑了一百万次。这是在这一天结束，它真正值得吗？因为我相信爱是美丽的。虽然很多事情都是不一样了，你依然保持一个我最喜欢在我的心脏。我真的很想念我们的过去：一起上学，一起吃午饭每天，看到对方的每一天，步行下过雨。不喜欢长大。每个人都忙于工作。勉强对方的时间。不，直到4点时钟了电话交谈。他很少博客我了。这是很可悲的的。伤心。已经4年。无论我永远爱你。爱你！

* Just saying'

2011-10-01T11:34:00.000-07:00

Today,I had lunch with Adrian at Quan's,Desa Pandan.

I waited for him for almost two hours.Obviously I was very mad !

However,the moment I got into his car and saw his face,the anger just faded off by a fraction.

I just don't have the heart to be mad at him.

Awwww me.

But I did sulk la.Haha.Refused to talk to him a while.

But after being compensated at Quan's with a hearty meal consisting of a plate of spaghetti,onion ring and a glass of green tea latte ( All my favs,yumsss ! ) we were back like normal or rather I was back like normal HAHAHA.

Went back and practise his physcometric ( I don't know if this is the right way to spell it ) test with him. Good luck and hopefully he make it with MAS this time !!

Later on had dinner with his family at Sri Rampai.HAPPY (Y)

How nice if everyday's like that ? :) Minus off the waiting part !

I know myself well. I am a hot-tempered person and I lose temper very fast.

I think I inherited it from my mother. So,don't blame me. :3

So a piece of advice for you girls,please look for a boyfriend who can tolerates your temper and of course,don't overdo it la. I think I am much better than before. My temper,I mean.

Talk to a few friends and notice they have changed so much.So scary.

I think I am the only one who hasn't grow up while the others did.

Nights !

2011-10-01T11:17:00.000-07:00

I think I should jot this moment down so that it remains alive in my memory and so that I can always come back and look at it when I feel depressed.
My aunt just told me the sweetest thing in the world !!!
I felt like crying the moment I heard those words.
Thanks,er yi !! I really,really appreciate your words of encouragement !
FINALLY there is somebody who's with me.
Almost everyone in the family disagree with my decision to study Dentistry but she's the first !
She told me to study what I want and there is no point forcing me to study something I dislike.
She also said that Dentistry is a good profession indeed.
Anyone can say those simple words but they just hit me at my soft spot at the time I need them the most !
People been saying hurtful things to me lately ;( Really hurtful.Worst still when those words come from the mouths of my own family members or my relatives.
I swear I felt like crying the moment I hear those words. I did cry after that.
Felt loved.LOVED.Thanks,er yi ! I always love you !
I grew up with my grandma and my three aunts.They're just like mum to me.
Now that they have their own family and children,once in a while I feel jealous.
But they're always my er yi,san yi and xiao yi !
Some fact which can never be changed!
And I love them !

Steamboat at Yuen Restaurant,Sunway

2011-09-30T03:44:00.000-07:00

This was quite some time ago,I believe.I can't recall when exactly it was but it was a public holiday.
We went to Sunway Pyramid in the morning.Hang around,watched Johnny English,bought my shoe and then went over for the steamboat at Yuen :-)
Yuen was introduced by my aunt to me a few years ago.
The first time I went to Yuen was during my 16th birthday with the crazy gang.Superb birthday.
But I guess a lot of things change after we left high school.The crazy gang now not so crazy anymore.
And we are not that close anymore.Sad but thats life.Everyone has their own path to go,no?
So back to the topic,we were at Yuen about 6.30 and we waited for 30minutes to get a table !
So the perfect time to be there is actually about 5 so you will not have to queue up.
What I like best about this restaurant ? ( I think many people already know about this place.Its very famous. )
Their eat-all-you-can concept and the variety of steamboat ingredients served.
They serve seafood such as crab,mussel,clam,fish and mantis prawn which I like very much. Haha.
I like seafood with shells :) And ahhhh,their chicken wings and ice-cream.You should watch the scene each time the honey-marinated chicken wings are brought out from the kitchen.People fight for them like they have not eaten chicken wings.Quite an ugly habit,eh? But I got to eat the chicken wings that night because people are getting lesser as its getting late so we don't really have to fight for them haha.
Price wise is very reasonable too,about RM 25 per person.The last time we went was RM 21.

Not many pics taken bcos I was busy eating.More and more shells ! Love the clams (Y)

Sushi King for lunch :-) Beware as their Bonanza will be back soon from 17-20 October !!! Yay :-)

On a darker note,MUET in 13 days :( Ah !

Yakiniku,Pandan Indah & Ice Cold Bier,Cheras

2011-09-29T11:31:00.000-07:00

So this is the glass of Iced Jasmine Tea I had which is included in the set :-) Refreshing :) I like the portion unlike some other places,the drinks come in such small glass.Where got enough eh?

Last Tuesday,Adrian and I dined at this place called Yakiniku Restaurant at Pandan Indah.

He came to pick me up about 6.45 and we reached about 7.30pm. Decided to give this restaurant a try after reading good reviews about it. Found out this place quite some time ago but didn't have the chance to drop by.

Normally,we only get to eat dinner together either on Tuesday or Thursday because I have to tutor on Monday and Wednesday. Speaking of tutoring,exam is getting nearer and I am feeling the tense too.Haha.

Okay,anyway.

We ordered this set for two which consists of two bowls of white rice,a plate of toufu,a plate of bacon,a plate of pork lean meat,a plate of lamb's shoulders and two cold drinks. Obviously,this amount of food wouldn't be enough for the both of us so we had some add on : another plate of pork lean meat,a plate of chuka kurage ( our favourite ) and two California temaki.

This restaurant is pet-friendly so one can bring pets along.

The grilled meat are best eaten with a type of sauce served. Lamb shoulder was good. Everything was good lah. They do have other items on their menu.

From what I read on the net,this is the only restaurant that still uses charcoal to grill ( kochabi ) haha.

The meal was quite satisfying. The bill came up to about RM 52 for two person.

We'll definitely go back again :) HAPPY

Yeah .. Adrian unintentionally broke a vase before leaving =P ( This year,he did a lot of sinful things )

The boss said it's okay but we feel bad so we'll try to compensate by visiting them more often. Haha.

It was still early after meal so we head for Ice Cold Bier at Cheras for drinks. They do serve non-alcoholic drinks but we had our Hoegaarden anyway :)

Great food and good company. Cheerio ;)

The charcoal :) Actually it's quite dangerous using this to grill haha .And its quite hot too sitting in front of the charcoal on the dining table.But the food is nice so I don't mind :) Self-service.So don't expect someone to do it for urself. Just do it XD Ok,so can you see the bowl of sauce? Omg heaven !!! And I quite like their idea of using partition too to separate every table.More privacy.Haha.

Rice,bacon,toufu,pork ... hungryyyyyyyyyyyy

Menu :) Must try their cold Soba my next trip there.They also serve steamboat and sushi.

I don't like toufu so I refuse to eat this but after it tasted quite good actually after grilling :-) tasted like yau char kuai hahaha.Nice !!! Included in the set otherwise just pay another RM 2.30

Yeap,the end of my meal :) Sorry for the low quality pics Mei Jin,the camera's not behaving.Haha.Go give it a try when u're back :) :)

There's been a death in the opposite house

2011-09-26T12:39:00.000-07:00

Its 3 in the morning and I was preparing to go to sleep already till I decided to check my Facebook account on the iPad for one last time before I sleep. A peaceful and cooling night ( it rained just now ) till I came across a video. A video of a woman lying in a pool of blood after being knocked down by a lorry. And that poor victim was none other than my grandma's friend. The last time I saw her was a few months back,when I was back in my hometown. She was quite a common sight to me as she used to work right opposite my grandma's house. Can't believe that was the last too.
Grandma told me she was a poor person but worked really,really hard just to make ends meet.
On that faithful day,she was sending her son for tuition.And the son never managed to make it for the tuition too.
My heart sank when I saw many books lying on the road. She died on the spot and her son died on the way to the hospital. And I saw that familiar hair clip she always had on her hair too.
I .. don't know what to say. Suddenly I have this dark,solemn feelings. Such person who worked so hard all her life died before she gets to enjoy life ? In such tragic way ? What about her husband ? and what is going to happen to her children ?
Then I realized .. die of old age is actually a blessing .. than some people who died in such tragic ways ..
I also realized that money is not everything in life. I just want everybody around me to be safe and healthy. So friends,please take care and be careful wherever you go because we really don't know what's going to happen next and when it happens,it's too late to realize it.
Do : -
Tell people you love that you love them.
Apologize to those whom you have hurt before.
Return everything you owe to others.
Savour every single minute of life be it happy or unhappy moments.Count ourselves grateful as you are still here reading my blog.
Learns to forget and forgive.
But deep in my heart , I fear deaths.
Love you guys !!! I do.
And suddenly I thought of the poem I used to study in high school.
"There's been a death in the opposite house".

Look Out Point on a fine evening

2011-09-22T01:44:00.000-07:00

Misty and mysterious ... Welcome to Look Out Point :) Love this place a lot especially at night. It was my second time up there with Adrian. Since I live somewhere in batu 9 the whole journey took bout 20mins? Yes,bout that. Nice place to hang,really. Far far away from the city. But not the food lah :( Most of the restaurants serve Western ; price is reasonable but taste wise,not satisfying.Sad huh.Nice place,nice view,nice weather,nice ambience,nice surroundings,nice music,nice company(ME) but no nice food. Haha. We reached there bout 6.Managed to catch the sunset from the viewing tower. 300m above sea level. Woohoo :)

Seriously love the weather a lot !!! Misty,cold and chilling ... KL was so hazy that day .. thanks to our beloved neighbour ;)

Happy boy because he has me :P both of us had fish & chip. And I love my hot rose tea :) they serve escargot which is about 18.90 for 1/2 dozen. You can get it @ Sakae,Taman Billion for only about 10.90 :) Escargot ; I love.

Got lost somewhere in a while ... where am I ?

Us , us and more of us !!! Freezing cold up there !!! Wearing Adrian's hoodie. Being the earliest at the restaurant,we get to pick the best spot with the best view :P cheers ! Feel like drinking something hot to make me warm. No Hoegaarden uh oh.. :( halal. Haha.

Night view .. Amazing and fascinating as always ... Spot KL Tower and KLCC !!!

Dimple dimple dimple DIMPLE !!!! :) come show me urs :P

A cup of hot rose tea on a cold evening . Talk about good life ;)

When sun sets .. and night falls

Feels like Genting ... HELLOOOO can you hear me ? Ahhhhhh I forgot. You can actually see Genting from there.

On top of the world ...

End the night with a piece of Tiramisu cake at Panaroma Cafe :) Happy. Bye.So my dear friends who are studying in Nottingham,do drop by if you have chance :) My mother's been quite nice lately. Don't know why and not really used to it too but hope she stays like this then my life will be made easier. Haha. Erm considering Law as my back up plan. In case I really didn't get to pursue Dentistry then I'd do Law. Doesn't really matter anymore to me.. from the day I decided to leave my overseas dream behind .. No difference,anyway. Seeing my friends bidding farewell in Facebook to study in the UK .. is like having millions of needles piercing through my heart.

2011-09-17T09:33:00.000-07:00

Can't wait to shift to Penang . Can't wait for things to start all over again. Can't wait to start our new life there.

X: But I don't have a house there.
Y:We'll get one and make it our new home ok.
Love.

2011-09-16T08:18:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I think I am the most f-ed up person on earth.
No,all the time actually.
Everyone is like against my decision to study Dentistry.
I don't know what to do.
Financial is another thing that is pestering my mind.
I have 3 more siblings after me.
Thats what I am always told.
Being the eldest means I can't pursue my own dream? Being the eldest means I can only do some cheap useless degree? Only the youngest can have their own dream and ambition?
What bout me?! Ever thought of my feelings?
If can't afford to pay for children's education then don't have so many children. There is a thing called family planning. I am not angry with anyone ! I am just so mad at myself !
WHY WAS I BORN LIKE THAT ?!? Did I do something bad in the past thats why I deserve this life?
If I were them of course I would want my children to get the best education in the world. I don't wish I have millionaire parents or what but at least start saving for my education the moment I was born ?
My friend is the eldest in the family too.
But still, she gets to go to the UK.
I have friends who come from middle income family too yet their parents try their best to save up and send them to overseas.So,fine.
I forgo my dream of going to overseas though it was my dream since young because I know my parents couldn't afford to and only opted for a local degree and yet that remains a doubt.
As I grew up I learnt that studying overseas is no longer something great.Its money that is doing the job !!!! Its the miserable word in life : MONEY !!!!! No wonder people say money makes the world go round. Money is hapiness. Why not ?
WHY YA? WHY IS LIFE SO FUCKING UNFAIR?
A part of me died long time ago when I knew I could not make it to overseas.
Don't try to advice me or anything cos you never knew how it feels.
I feel so fed up that I might as well just be a homemaker in the future !!!!
Hate the world. Hate the cruel reality. Hate everyone else !!!
Can you feel the sorrowness deep in me?
Do you know I have died so long ago?
I am just a living corpse hanging out of nowhere stucked in this meaningless life,waiting to be called to the place where I came from.
I have no more courage to keep on living.. had lost the final bit..
Just take my life with You,will You?

2011-09-12T12:43:00.000-07:00

3.35 am in the morning. No idea what I am doing here when I am suppose to be sleeping.
Sent in my application for PIDC. Really hope to make it for the March intake.
To a land far far away and 2 years isn't a short duration.
I don't know if I can survive there.
I wonder how life will be like there.
Will I be missing Msia all the time there?
I don't know... so many questions running through my mind.
But kind of already made up my mind on what I want to do.
*finger crossed*
I hope this is really what I want.
I don't wish for life to be easier but hope God will make me a stronger person instead 'cos only the stronger ones will survive at the very end !!!!

Lomo

2011-09-12T01:33:00.000-07:00

Of shells .. I love mussels and clams . Basically any seafood with shells :) Escargot FTW !

Us at Botanical Garden,Malacca . After buggy.

Malacca River. Always gives me a sense of nostalgic.

Sunset Cafe,Klebang Beach,Malacca.Average.

Best picture I'ever captured !!! Sunset @ Klebang.

2011-09-11T22:12:00.000-07:00

Don't be so bloody rude to your teacher.
I pray for your failure.
Don't think by paying me a small amount of money every month you can be so rude to me.

2011-09-06T23:44:00.000-07:00

Oh come on people,lets revive blogspot !! dump dump dump Facebook !!
Update your blogs frequently la guys.. I wanna read ;(
Seeking for a short getaway on the 16th 'cos its a public holiday as we know. I thought Melaka/Bukit Tinggi/Port Dickson is an ideal holiday destination for a day or two. BUT the sad part is,most of them are fully booked !! Plan going back to Melaka for the satay celup,Nadeje Cafe and seafood @ Portugese Settlement ; the things we missed during our trip last month. And I bet Melaka would be crowded and jammed on the 16th. I remember going to Melaka on a public holiday 2 years back then and oh boy, the intense hot weather + traffic condition = so not a holiday !

Speaking of Melaka,
There must be a few things I must highlight from our recent trip.

1.Klebang coconut shake- superb,perfect thirst-quench on a sunny day! Only 2.50 for a glass of coconut shake ; definitely made my day ;)

2.Jonker- love the crowds! but do take note that Jonker is only open on Friday,Sat and Sun nights. Do drop by Geographer cafe to enjoy the live music band and the crowds on the weekends !!!

3.Buggy ride @ Melaka botanical garden- nice experience although the buggy only travels at 20km/h. Beware as accidents might happen hahaha. Like what happened on me :P

Miss Melaka a lot ; can't wait to get back there asap

September

2011-09-05T23:26:00.000-07:00

It's already early September.
September always gives me this kind of dreamy feelings. Maybe it's because of the song..
"Wake me up when September ends... "
Hope all is well for you guys !
Hope my September is filled with happiness !

2011-09-05T23:20:00.000-07:00

Sites I check everyday

1. Facebook - Facebook makes people self-obsessed.Why do people have to announce to the entire world when they're sick/mad/heart-broken? I don't update my status anymore lately. I think Facebook is a type of privacy invasion. However,I am still keeping my account cuz I don't have to pay for it unlike sms or calls :P hard to resist Fb every time I come online.But I manage to cut down a lot already! And I already decided to abandon it once I start uni. Withdrawal symptoms.

2.Groupons- cheap deals !! :) But I have never purchased anything online before. Just dont trust internet transaction.

3.Jaynetstars - Hong Kong entertainment site in English where I get lots and lots of gossips about TVB celebs. Hot from the oven fuh!

4.Beautifulnara - Malaysia's very own entertainment site =)

5.My own blog and friends' blogs =)

6.Food reviews but I lost trust in food review already. Learnt to trust my own tongue :)

2011-09-05T23:02:00.000-07:00

Hi all, just gotten back from Penang for the raya break.
I could have stayed with my grandparents but as a responsible tutor whose students are sitting for PMR and SPM soon, I have no choice but to come back !! Oh why :'(
Anyway I think I will be heading for Penang again in November.
Penang is really a nice place to live.
Miss my grandparents ! My grandparents are one of those whom I always look up to since young. Probably cuz I grew up with them. Had a nice bonding session with the relatives since my aunts all came back. And then when it's time to bid farewell,everyone left with teary eyes ;( Hope to see all my aunts and cousins soon !
Derrick is already 6 for God's sake ! How time flies !

Went back to college today to get my certs certified and stuff. HELP was packed with new students. And I saw many new unfamiliar faces in A-Level's office.
Pusat Bandar Damansara is a nice place cuz its convenient ; they have everything there : Mc D, KFC, immigration hence all the photo shops except for the old buildings which are a lil bit dirty.

2011-08-21T11:20:00.000-07:00

Now that I have gotten my results I got more important and hard decisions to make : where and what to study? One after another and its a never ending process =( So tired being a human.Mm eyeing on Dentistry but as always,things is not as easy as ABC.

Sometimes I think I am so much like Dr. Jekyl and Mr. Hyde.

A part of me is so ambitious and is always trying to get to the peak and on the other hand,I feel so tired of struggling and I only want to be a good wife/mother in the future.Yes,so serious about this.

Anyway.. had dinner with Adrian's family last night and was fun as usual =)

Went to Pavillion in the afternoon to get Snowflake.Had Ian tagged along.Adrian is so addicted to Snowflake.Wonder why. I find it chilling,refreshing and not more than that.And on a BRIGHTER note,he got me this flask!! Swear I am loving it ! <3 Got it from a shop called TYPO and I love their stuffs so so much ! Nah have a peak at it ! I am going to use this throughout my uni years :) Thanks ! I feel so loved.

Eiffel tower and flying balloons ... =) classic!!!

And..I know my mum loves us.Sorry mum for all the times I complain about you!

P/s: Love Unifi,its so fast! Takes only about 3seconds to upload this pics ! =) Nightz!

2011-08-18T08:29:00.000-07:00

Hi ! ^_^ Got my results today and I survived A-Level OMG can't believe it hehhehe !
My results is average and most importantly,I met the requirement for Dentistry/Med !!!! ;)
but a bit sad that some of the B's I gotten is soooo near to A,like a few marks away argh.
But its ok,I will work my ass off in uni I swear !!! So whats next,you may ask. Haha. Erm I am not sure but most likely will be doing Dentistry. Yeap.
Once again,I am done with A-Level and I survived !!!! ;) Thank God for His guidance ! The other day when I cleaned up my room I still keep my A-Level books in the shelf just in case I have to resit in Jan but now wheee I shall send them away and nvr see them again !!! HAHAHA. And I am really proud of my Physics!! I got a B for Physics when I thought I am going to flunk it. 94 for Physics 4 unbelievable but I did work for it ! Could have done better but nyahahhaa... Thank God once again !! Now its time to decide whats next and work my ass off! Thanks everyone for everything? hehehe.
Steamboat at Yulek with Adrian just now :)
Nights world!

The story in Malacca continues..

2011-08-11T08:19:00.000-07:00

Klebang Beach,Malacca at 5pm ;)

Beautiful view...

Our kite ;) so windy

The sunset view from Sunset Bistro,the place we had our dinner :)

God's creation

More of the sunset view =)

Light dinner : chicken chop and fish and chip :)

Sunset Bistro by Klebang Beach =) Food wise,average but thumbs up for the awesome sunset view ;) Credits to Adrian for taking me there.

Yes,Klebang's famous original coconut shake =) perfect thirst quench on a sunny day !!! =)

The view from our guest house's balcony .. =) even better at night.

Here.. another one =) windy afternoon ;)

Melaka Cruise which I went once during my school field trip =) Heard its even better at night..Love the sound each time the cruise passes by.. ;)

Melaka River =)

Love the guest house's balcony !!!! =) This balcony will be the reason why I just have to go back to the same guest house in the future !!! Its even prettier at night when the neon lights are on ;) Perfect place to hang !!!

Coffee table =)

St Paul Hill =) Lazy to climb all the way up HAHA

Ikan gerang asam at Nyonya Suan Restaurant. The food was just average.Think my grandma's cooking is even better =)

Nah this is fun !!!!! Buggy ride !!! =) This was Adrian and the red one was mine =) Moving at 20km/h :/ That is slowwww. Nice view in the jungle. Saw an ape and a few monkeys in the jungle.

30minutes ride =)

We're done =)

Me me me =)

Adrian's buggy broke down. Haha

Us ! us ! us ! =)

Malacca's famous landmark ;)

Roses from Adrian :)

2011-08-11T07:56:00.000-07:00

Crazy day today.
Went all the way to Ikea for their meatballs and Daim cake love :)
Walked in Ikea after lunch and followed by movie in Ceneleisure.
First movie was Zookeeper.This movie,I'd say is not bad but Mr Popper's Penguins is obviously way better.Karaoke for 1hour then followed by,"The Rise of the Planet Apes". Adrian sang like mad hahaha. First time karaoke without tidbits and drinks.No wonder its so cheap. Only 11 bucks for an hour.
This movie is worth watching but I find it quite scary at the same time.I used to think apes are cute and adorable but not anymore now.They are scary.
Came all the way back to Cheras for dinner.Sushi King was so packed God damn it. Maybe because it was buka puasa time.We had to wait for like 10mins before we got seated.
But anyway its ok !! As long as Adrian is there to keep myself accompanied anything is fine :)
Mm I just want to say I am not bothered by whats going on between the people around me. Happy or sad,its their own business.And the same thing applies on me too. Happy or sad,I will not bother others anymore. I only care for a person that is Adrian. Because he is the one who keep me companied through thick and thin. Might complain bout him often but in the end he's always the one I love the most. Thank God for such an amazing person in my life!! Talking bout tuition,fuck up place.I dont feel happy teaching there anymore. I dont have to make myself so unhappy for that small amount of money.Apparently there is this student who is making something out of nothing.Don't want to elaborate so much.I know what am I doing. However,still love my home tuition students.Not so high pay but at least I do not have to raise my voice like a mad dog while teaching them.
We bumped into so many people at The Curve too.Coincident much.
Thanks for everything Adrian Lim <3

2011-08-08T21:21:00.000-07:00

There's only one thing in my mind ever since I came back from Malacca.
MIGRATING.
At this point I am seriously considering it.
Between Australia and Canada.
Thinking of the more relaxing lifestyle there,
Better education opportunity for my children in the future(world-ranked unis)
New better environment to live in
And seeing I am so fed up of everything in KL,Msia
Why not?
Leaving KL meaning leaving everything I have here and back to square one again.
But I don't mind.
Cuz I gave up on the people and everything here soooo long ago.
Migration FTW!

Away for 2days

2011-08-07T03:14:00.000-07:00

Away for 2days and from an ambitious person I am now a girl with a small,small dream.
Away for 2days and I even thought and plan of migrating already.
Away for 2days and I am missing it so much!
Away for 2days and there is this desperate urge in me to leave everything behind in KL and to a place that is quiet,isolated and peaceful to live at.
Away for 2days and I realized money not necessarily brings happiness.
I miss Malacca.

"While I stand on the roadway,or on the pavement's grey
I hear it in the deep heart's core". -W.B.Yeats

PHS

2011-08-06T08:29:00.000-07:00

Phew.I am back and yeah.SAD TO BE BACK :'( UH HUHHHH I WANNA CRY :'(
Having Postholidays symptoms(PHS)
Gone for 2days but felt like so long to me.
Great holiday.
Amazing companion.
Nice and cheap food.
Awesome guest house.
Seaside.
What else to ask for?
TIME :( 2days felt so short.Like in a blink of an eye.And thats the end of my holiday!
Blog more details tmr. Night

U're guessing Penang? Nope,its Malacca!

2011-08-04T16:55:00.000-07:00

Got up so early today! I think this was the earliest ever since I finished my exam :)

EXCITED WHEEEEE haha

Such a great day to start off ^_^

Its gonna be an awesome day!

Checked Fb and glad I have friends which really made my day even though at 7 in the morning!

Manage to chat with some of my primary school friends and Azrul who suddenly told me he missed me a lot !!!! Awww ^_^ really made my day,thanks! Have a feeling its gonna be amazing :D Love u guys! MUAX MUAX MUAXZ! haha Hope the weather cooperates !

Getaway!

2011-08-04T00:51:00.000-07:00

Greetings all !
Will be heading somewhere tomorrow for a perfect getaway :) So excited that I couldn't close my eyes the entire night last night !
I have them all in my mind right now : where to hang out,what to do,what food to eat,what to visit :) Pray that it'd turn out to be a memorable holiday,would you? :)
Just a 2days 1night trip but I have a feeling its going to be so nice,relaxing,amazing perfect getaway ;) Finally we made it.It better be good.

My mother kind of ruined my holiday mood during lunch just now.I had enough of her,seriously.Showing us her long face for God-knows-what-reason-on-earth.
So what you're a mother? Being a mother means scolding your children when they suggest some food you didn't like during lunch? Being a mother means to cause the situation at the dining table to be so tensed during lunch time? Is that what being a mother all about? Its ok,anyway. I am not really bothered by it because I will be leaving this house soon once I start my degree. Anywhere to,just not KL.Wheee. Holiday tomorrow!

Mm haven't pack my bag but I am so excited about the whole ordeal from planning to packing ! :D Will blog bout it when I am back! Till then!

Oh yerp,I enjoy tutoring very much and I am happy doing it too! Its a job whereby I only have to work like 4hours a session and 3times a week and yet the money I earn is not little too(not much also la okay XP ) For the same amount of money I don't have to like stand in the shopping centre from 10 to 10 or do office work which I really can't stand! Tried,too bored,can't take it! Crapping with my students in the class..mixing with them makes me feel so so so young again !! I am serious! Haha! Couldn't stop laughing in the class last night HAHA and I have just gotten myself 3Chem students.Okay,I am not doing full time.Tutoring is just something I do to kill time while earning some money :) definitely not a long term job! BUT BUT BUT SO MANY THINGS TO BUY YET SO LITTLE MONEY! This is a crisis faced by every teenager,I believe.So cheers!! Sometimes,desiring is better than having something.Currently tutoring at home and centre.Msg me if you need one lol

Oh oh I used to admire this girl.She's smart and pretty but I just lost respect for her.
Wearing too revealing clothes does not show any better that you are an educated person.
Ya ya what century am I in now? but as an educated person,especially someone so brainy like you,you should know whats dressing ethics,right?

P/S: Thanks guys for the wonderful msgs at the chatbox! :) And not to forget,my dear friend,Jen Hoe,the faithful blog follower of mine who never fails to leave me inspiring and comforting msg at my posts! THANKS! Lastly,HAPPY HOLS to myself! :)

2011-08-02T02:35:00.001-07:00

Already know what to do with my next salary lol.
Diana F+ ! ;)

Me,me and more of me again.

2011-07-31T09:33:00.000-07:00

GK is officially SINGLE again ! Every single girl out there must be cheering now ^_^ so is me! haha but I kind of pity the fiancee :'( I mean,can't imagine if this happens on me.Bf left when he's on the peak of his career.Stay strong,Elia! Marry me,GK!!!!
Mmm been so down for the past two days.
Ah Li Ah Yi came to stay with us during the weekends and so we were busy eating around so more or less helps to easy my sadness away.And we had seafood in Klang just now,together with Xiao Yi and Uncle Lai ^_^ crabs,clam,fish,seafood I love.Still not talking to him.
But its ok. I am not badly affected.I know what's my priority and I will not let anything stand in my way.Nothing and nobody. Hope that's clear enough.
My aunt said,"if a guy gives you crap,throw the crap to him back and move on with ur happy life". Ya man of cuz !! I am not the kind that will get bullied easily. Time,is all I need.
But most of all,enjoy spending some time with ah yi during her stay.Kind of pity her,all the way from Penang and she's living alone in KL.She reminds me of the time when I just came back from Penang.The loneliness and home sick.. omg =S unbearable.
Thanks for all your concern friends! Love u guys ^_^

P/s: If you're wondering,GK=goalkeeper! :)
By the way,HAPPY FASTING to all my Malay friends! Love u guys! Love the pasar ramadhan!

When anger turns into buckets of tears..

2011-07-29T11:24:00.000-07:00

Jiao tong.. xin ye chao tong..
what should I do? :'(
I am seriously very mad ! and this is not the first time u have done that to me.
We already set a date for our trip and then now u tell me u're going with ur friends on my date !!!! I was hell so angry mad frustrated !!! FUCKING HATE MELAKA! I seriously wanted to end everything just now.Just that I don't have courage.I am afraid of living alone.But I am also also afraid of being disappointed over and over again. So happy planning when you're going with friends! How come its not like that when it comes to our trip? I don't feel your enthusiasm,not even 50% that of urs right now.I been crying all night long thinking whether to end it or not. I feel so tired.. hanging there alone..

feel so hungry after crying..
crying burns so much calories..

Regret

2011-07-29T06:37:00.003-07:00

Sad knowing you guys. Wish we never met !

Khairul Fahmi

2011-07-29T06:31:00.001-07:00

MARRY ME GK !!!!! MARRY ME !!!!!

World Cup.. gone

2011-07-28T08:34:00.000-07:00

And so Msia lost 6-4 to Singapore :( Anyway,what are they without their 5 naturalised players? Meh. Msia still the best !!!!

But still,Khairul Fahmi is still the best goalkeeper !!! Seriously man of the match !!!! Cayalah !! Forget bout him girls,taken haha.So much has been said about him;about him cheating on his gf and etc.Hope he doesn't change and hopefully he'll stay loyal and faithful to his fiancee despite all this fame(Even though there's one right here waiting for him haha !!!!) I mean,after all thats what makes a man respectable right?

Damn .. !! I love sports so much ! Atheletes and sports are so cool.. too bad not born with the talent..

Indah Lelapku.. layan sekejap

2011-07-28T01:48:00.001-07:00

Dalam lelapku ini
Terbayang wajah seakan puteri
Dalam lelapku ini
Munculnya dia bagai bidadari

Dalam renungku ini
Sepenuhnya ku ingin mendekati
Dalam hatiku ini
Sepenuhnya ku ingin memiliki

Dan bila
Cuba bangun dari lelapku
Dan bila
Ku cuba buka kan mataku

Dan hilang
Segala rupa yang telah ku bayang
Dan hilang
Segala rasa yang telah ku rasa
Dan hilang
Segala semua harapanku
Dan hilang
Cerita indah dalam tidurku

Dalam renungku ini
Sepenuhnya ku ingin mendekati
Dalam hatiku ini
Sepenuhnya ku ingin memiliki

Dan bila
Cuba bangun dari lelapku
Dan bila
Ku cuba buka kan mataku

Dan hilang
Segala rupa yang telah ku bayang
Dan hilang
Segala rasa yang telah ku rasa

Nyatalah dia hanya dalam mimpiku
Dan kisah aku memilik cinta hati
Nyatalah dia hanya kekasih pelukku
Sampai sini kisah aku dengan nya

Nice song

Indah lelapku by Izwan Pilus (Y)

2011-07-28T01:39:00.001-07:00

Hope to complete my first bento by next week !! :D

Food cravings

2011-07-27T11:05:00.000-07:00

Some food in my mind
-Meatballs @ Ikea
-Cold soba @ Ichiban Boshi
-Hakka food @ Brickfields Omg,do u know their fried oysters with seaweed is so crunchy that after eating them u still think of them day and night?!
-Sushi King @ Jaya One 2bucks for every kaiten belt items on Tuesday and Thursday!!

Bento love

2011-07-27T08:48:00.000-07:00

Ah been watching videos about sushi-making and bento on Youtube and I am head over heels in love with them !!! I think I rather invest on them than beauty products XD Anyway anyway I just got something for myself again last night : Face mist,mascara and lipstick from The Body Shop,Jusco Cheras Selatan.My ultimate aim was just to get my blue paint there and then ended up being brainwashed by the promoter there hahaha she's a good promoter really,lucky Body Shop for hiring her..no wonder I spent so much there :/
Ahhh and we had Ichiban Ramen again after so long.. Ahh the food there sucks :/ Basically all the F&B outlets in Jusco Selatan suck eh .. :( I still want my IKEA's meatballs..and just beg Adrian to drive me to Jaya One for my 2bucks sushi hahaha..

Ya so anywayssss back to my bento and sushi story,its not just food,its an art !!!
Japanese women spend hours in the morning preparing bento for their family members and it seems that bento-making is a skill that every Japanese woman must master.. cool..
Just look at the equipments for preparing bento..ahh even more cool !!! and so are the boxes and clothes used to wrap the bento too !!! Really admire Japanese culture.. (Y)

Mm.. pics to make u drool,Jen Hoe.Haha.Anyway those pics featured here I think I kind of master them through U tube already..Look complicated but actually not.I just need the Bento equipments to get started like the star shape cutter and all.Hopefully my interest don't just die halfway again and hopefully I will make my way to Daiso to get all these soon too ! Nadaa! :)
And ya,my tuition centre is offering a 2hours Bento class for rm 35.Ingredients provided.Mm feel like joining..

Things I am up to recently

2011-07-25T02:21:00.000-07:00

Things I have been doing of late and loving them too.

1.Experimenting with make ups

Can't experiment on myself so my sister was made the first victim.Got inspired by Bubz.Loving the eye shadow,mascara,eyeliner etc etc.And I think I take skin care so seriously lately.Scrub and mask at least twice a week.Changing my nail colour once a week.

Suddenly became so obsessed with myself.Well,its because I have the time and all so might as well seize this opportunity! After all,I was born with this instinct.And ya,becoming more and more health obsessed too.I exercise and take yoghurts.Counting my calories before meal.Ahaha.

2.Eat all you can

-Yeap had so many buffets lately.And been invited by Adrian to join his family for another buffet next weekend.Not sure whether I'd be able to join them but let's just see how things go.I haven't had my Ikea meatballs anyway!!! :(

3.Tutoring

-Been so busy with my tutoring job.I teach at tuition centre and home.Thats when I realized students' attitudes is so vital ! Give me a bunch of hardworking and good students I will turn them into A's students.Give me a class of noisy and mischevous students bleh I feel so down while teaching them.Down,down,down the drain...Mm back then I was that kind of student too.No wonder teachers seemed so bored while teaching us. Hmm ..

And and my heart aches to see the roses given by Adrian on my bday starts to wilt day by day..Told him not to give me flowers anymore.Can't afford to see them wilt and die :'( Earlier on I was drying for flowers.. Thats when.. sometimes some thing you want is not something that you really want at the end.Hmm.. a thought for all of us.
Till then my beautiful ones! Thanks for reading ^_^

Hot debate over Cochrane

2011-07-24T07:12:00.000-07:00

Wosh,the debate is getting hotter and hotter.Even hotter than my fresh-from-the-oven Rotiboy ! but I don't think that will change anything.What is done has been done.
Funny how people laugh at us for voicing out.
Why only me,Yen Chin and Nicholas are speaking for Prefects?
Because we are the true CRS Prefects !
I wonder what happens to those people that talk so loud behind the captain's back and when its time for them to speak out,they just remain silent and chicken ! HAHA FUNNY YOU PEOPLE ! Anyway,I have gotten my Friday back !!!

2011-07-23T11:06:00.000-07:00

One short post and I'm off to bed!
Suddenly our net is abuzz with some issues regarding our school's Carnival Day and Haunted House.I don't think it's a big issue and people are just making something out of nothing.
But sorry,as an ex-prefect I am always Team Prefect.I always have very strong sense of belonging.
On our bearing the tone of the school depends.
Carnival Day to me,is more of spending money,duty,varieties of food,games and having fun with friends.I don't see anything wrong with it.
Anyway,lately I've been really anti-social.Like going out only when I really have to,staying away from friends and stuff etc etc except Adrian lah.I think I am fine this way.Don't give your heart away so easily so that you'll not get hurt easily too.Nightz!

2011-07-23T02:06:00.000-07:00

Love listening to oldies.
Oldies but goodies.

Heaven Knows
She's always on my mind
From the time I wake up till I close my eyes
She's everywhere I go
She's all I know
Though she's so far away
Its just keep getting stronger everyday..
Love love love this part !!!

Saturday is always best spent with Adrian =) Went for breakfast at Old Town after picking me up.We love the Chicken Hor Fun there so everytime we visit Old Town we make it a point to have a bowl of that.And some old man's bread.And my fav cold Black Tea.
Subway for lunch.Gotta admit this,haven't been eating Subway since I left college.Love the fresh veggies.Make sure I have tonnes of onion on my 6' foot.Haha.My grandma,aunts and I ..we are all the same.We'd love lots and lots of onion !! Especially in asam laksa. Omg drool. Really miss my hometown and the food there. And my grandparents too lah obviously. Gotta make my way there soon !
Need a cuppa.Want to sleep now.Cuz there is football tonight !
Not really a fan of football but whenever Msia plays,I just have to be there to support them ! Especially Khairul Fahmi !!! :) Yeap.Best of luck tonight ! Beat the singas,Harimau Malaya !!!

What we had over the past few weeks.
-Steamboat at Yulek
-Seoul Garden at 1U
-Kenny Rogers at LM
-Burger Kings
-Subway
-Old Town
-MAIU Japanese Buffet (sucks too)
-Mc Donalds
-Sushi King
-Gelato (50% off flavour of the week :D )
-Adrian's home-cooked sausages
-Tutti Frutti (sucks to the max)

Wow.Quite a lot actually. *gulp*
And what we plan to have soon
-IKEA's meatballs
-Steamboat again lol (the grilled chicken wings there are goooD! )
-Snowflake !!!
-MELAKA :P
Its nice having him around again! He's back ! YAY
P/s: All the best to him for his interview on Monday! Hopefully he gets the job so we can go Seoul Garden every week HAHA.
Just kidding.
I am not an evil gf,am I?

2011-07-21T08:47:00.000-07:00

Pictures above were the food we had at MAIU Japanese Buffet. Erkkk don't think its nice loh. In fact,I vomitted twice right outside the restaurant :( and the sad part is,I kind of hate Japanese food already after that.Phobia :'( Look at the amount of rice we had.Scary =S Never trust food reviews from internet again till you try it urself! That's my advice,please take it seriously.And and and the samples taken by Adrian from the beauty fair for me ahahhaa.. He bought me 20pieces of masks lol.

Bye Facebook. Hi Life.

2011-07-21T07:41:00.000-07:00

Oh hey,I officially deactivated my Facebook account last night.
Reason being?
-Facebook is like a drug and you get so addictive.So is me.I think life should not be spent Facebooking and I have many other better things to be done so BYE! I don't think I can't survive without it.It's just FACEBOOK.
-So fed up of friends.So I kind of decided not to keep contact with them anymore.Birthdays/gatherings/events none of my business anymore.Leave me alone.
Ya ya ya so BYE FACEBOOK.HELLO LIFE.

What a day today lol.
Adrian came to pick me up early in the morning and off we went to 1U.
Walked around and then lunched at Seoul Garden.
Ah had so much meat there..black pepper beef,Szechuan chicken,tomyam chicken,coffee chicken.Well,he grilled them while I just waited to be served haha.I prefer the steamboat part actually.Had some generous servings of clam,oysters and vegetables.And lastly,ice-cream as dessert.Lunch was really fillingggg.Thats one the reasons why you go for EAT ALL YOU CAN after all.The marinated meat was quite nice la.And unlimited refills as well.
Quite reasonable for that price.
Nyaha and he got me a purse from Accessorizes as birthday present and also 3stalk of roses.Aha.Love.And and and since I still owe him his birthday present,got him a .. I don't know what you call that but its smtg you use to stretch ur hands and legs.Only athletes like him will know for God's sake aha.Also got him a zebra print sunglasses casing from Cotton On.Think he's really happy with them =D Thank God.Its so hard for him to find smtg he likes.He's worst than girls lah XD
Watched Hanna cuz we were so tired after walking rounds and rounds.
This movie is average lah.Not really impressive.Basically everyone just died.
Was still full after movie so decided to have light dinner before going back cuz I am sure Federal Highway must be dead packed at 7.30pm.Had Burger kings.Was good la you know.Sometimes what you eat don't really matter but whom you are eating with is more important,no? Thats what I think lah,at least.
So time to go home after dinner.Missed the left turning into Federal Highway and out of nowhere,we ended up at Taylor's LOL.U-turned and wanted to get back to F.Highway but we missed the turning again and then we ended up at NPE Highway :O And then soon found ourselves at Maju Highway and thank God,managed to exit into Bukit Jalil.
Whoa.. both ways were packed with cars!!! Chelsea-Msia tonight.How not to be congested lol.And lastly,made our way back to Cheras. Thank Goddddd.Such a long way home.Dead tired.Think its time to rest.
Nice day we had today.
And yeah fuck Facebook. I left !!!!! =D
Some photos for you guys to see cuz I won't be around in Facebook anymore.So don't miss me XD

Clean and clear;before eating.

Adrian .. cute eh.

In the process of eating..prawns,oysters..

Kimchi soup;for the steamboat.Don't taste like kimchi actually XD

Nyaha told him to refill my drinks for me :)

Eh why so cute lately? haha

Aftermath...

Some chicken in the midst of grilling process..beef taste better..

Kimchi soup,a clearer view..

A pic of us.. :)

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2011-07-20T09:59:00.000-07:00

Birthday.. just another day.Passed.
As I grow older,the urge to celebrate birthday is no more there.
I am hating birthdays more and more la :(
No cake cutting or whatsoever.
Also,comes the devastated part when some of the good friends "forget" to wish or just simply wish through Facebook.
Rubbish lah.
Anyway,to those who wish me through sms,thanks so much,I appreciate them a lot.Those are sincere wish I regard. The :) I replied in Fb is all fake. I don't feel happy at all. In fact,had to spend my birthday teaching at tuition centre also today. I am hating life more and more.

2011-07-19T12:01:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to myself.
Can't believe I am 19 already..feeling old.. I am serious about it.Not joking.
Always tell Adrian I don't wanna grow older.. :( but cant help it,I am still growing.
As we grow older,birthday wishes on the phone gets lesser and lesser but there are some friends who never fail to wish me through the phone every year..thank God for those friends :) Cheng Aun who sends me a different birthday mms every year,Jen Hoe's long msg which inspires me all the time.Not to forget,a phone call which comes in 12 sharp every year from Adrian.

Thanks for all the birthday wishes on Facebook.
God bless.
I still prefer birthday card though :P
Have fun tmr!

2011-07-18T13:37:00.000-07:00

Places to hit with the other half.
( Keep telling myself to be R.E.A.L.I.S.T.I.C )

1.Malacca ( possibly next month )
2.Cameron Highlands ( after Malacca road trip,probably...next few years? :( )
3.Krabi ( love love love ! hope to be there while I am still studying,I am getting older )
4.Bali,Indon ( shop till you drop there,ermm in 6years time ? )
5.Maldives ( One word to describe ; PARADISE )
6.Furano,Japan ( My childhood dream and lavender,the next 10 years ? )

5 immediate things to be done once I start working ( which is still way long,by the way )
1.Get a car loh obviously hah.What car? Perhaps a Viva will do. Long term plan ; a 2 door BM :P
2.Shift out? Mmm.
3.Come home anytime I want
4.Travel?
5.Countdown for holidays

Things in my mind currently.
1.I should be sleeping. Its 4.26 a.m.
2.Get my hair cut tmr,nervous ! Haha.
3.My birthday :O
4."Because of Love" by Faye and Eason
5.I should be sleeping !!

5 proudest moments in high school.
1.While receiving my best student trophies in form 1.
2.Setting new record in the relay event.
3.Appointed as secretary for Prefectorial Board back in form 2.
4.Installation and retiring ceremony.
5.The day I was made the new president of Leo Club =)

5 food I am craving right now.
1.Penang laksa ( Thanks to Anthony Chan =_= )
2.Chuka Kurage @ Jellyfish sushi ( though I have yet to recover from my vomiting spree XD )
3.Shabu-shabu
4.Grandma's cooking.
5.Malay food

5 bad things about myself.
1.DEAD SENSITIVE.
2.EMO
3.LOW SELF-ESTEEM
4.PROCRASTINATE
5.STALKING lol.

5 things I am afraid of.
1.Death
2.Poverty
3.Loneliness
4.Temper
5.Height and speed

2011-07-18T13:06:00.000-07:00

4.05 a.m.
There are still people wandering and searching but I found mine.

2011-07-16T10:56:00.000-07:00

So sad to hear that the two dogs had been put to sleep.Can't help it but cried while reading the articles on the newspaper.Where is the love for animals on this damn earth? If everyone remains this shitty might as well just die off lah in 2012.

On a brighter note,met Adrian today.He passed me some stuff he got for me from the beauty fair.Some masks and nail polish.Haha.Adrian Lim,the only reason that keeps me going.Lunch at home,made by Adrian.Simple lunch but really enjoyed it.Just some bread and boiled sausages :) Love Adrian ! Funny how I used and still complains about him ( :P ) that he's not good enough blah blah but I still love him so much.Funny too how we can just sit in his house for hours doing nothing and yet still enjoys each other's company.
Dropped by at Gelato before going back.Ya,simple simple day,simple simple things,simple simple person Adrian is but I like everything.
Afraid things will change when I go else where to further my studies.Of course,we want things to stay the way they are but.. this is life.. we are normal human beings.. pray hard,may we'll stay together as long as we want it to be.

2011-07-15T07:06:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I think I am too good to be in this family.
Most of my friends get their cars once they get their license.
I mean,I would have done the same thing too when my children get their license.
But what about me?
Knowing I need a car to move around so much,my father still refused to get me a car.
I even told him to just get me a Kancil so that I dont have to rely on public transport to move around.Others dont,they get to choose what car they want.I have friends driving Civic,Myvi,Vios.Yeah.Lucky people have such parents.
Dont buy me a car?Fine.I never said a word.U know how I get to Pandan Jaya every Friday?
Take a cab to Leisure Mall from my house followed by bus to Maluri,LRT to Pandan Jaya and lastly a cab again to my student's house.One way journey costs me 11bucks.
And sometimes when I ask my mum to fetch me from Suntex which is like 5mins away from house,she bangs the car door and throw her things.Yeah.And when she picks me up from college,I have to make sure I am right there before she reaches.If not,ready to get screwed again.

JPA caused me to break down so many times.And my parents,add salt to my wound all the time.Instead of comforting me,what they always say is,"WHAT SCHOLARSHIP ALSO YOU DON'T WANT TO APPLY.GOOD LA NOW.GOOD". Yeah can you imagine ur parents telling u this? What can I do?Just remain silent loh.What is there to explain to them?Since they think they are always right and I am always wrong.

So many of my friends are going overseas.Some of them can't afford to do full time there so opted for twinning instead.At least,their parents is willing to pay for them to do twinning.Some so useless yet still get to go overseas?Why?Because they have rich parents.Not telling that I am good,never think I am good.What bout me? I look for my way out.How many of us is willing to go to India?! but I don't mind cuz its relatively cheap. And I already planned how to finance my studies. I got 75k scholarship from government and the rest I plan to take a loan from the bank.Yes the one that comes with SKY-ROCKETING HIGH INTEREST.I calculated.When I work in the future,I would have to pay like about more than 1k a month?But I don't mind.Cuz I believe its a kind of investment which I can earn back.I believe my father is not willing to pay that big sum of money.Am I still not good enough? AM I STILL NOT GOOD ENOUGH?!!! After all,isn't this part of a parent's responsibilities?To finance their children's education?

Growing up,I never had a father or mother whom I can talk to about my future.Felt so lonely in this cold place.Was generously rewarded by my relatives when I did well in SPM but my parents gave me nothing.NOTHING.Not to say I am greedy but I feel this is so not right.My friends,whoa got like what?1k for an A? Did I complained?Nope.I did not say a thing.AM I STILL NOT GOOD ENOUGH?

I am tired,fucking sick with this dysfunctional family! Feel like running away from home but there's nowhere I can head for.

2011-07-14T12:50:00.000-07:00

Took 2days to clean up my room and I am not done yet actually haha but at least it doesn't look like a landfill anymore.Always ended up feeling so nostalgic whenever I clean my room.Such a long,long way back to the older times.
Wiped my trophies and medals which perched on the top of the shelves.They are always my pride and joy,the proudest moment of my life I'd say.Each trophies and medal has their own story behind it.The most memorable medal is definitely the KELAS 3 relay event medal.We broke the old record set in 2000,u know how proud I was?!!
Back then in primary school I represented school in 100m and long jump but when I stepped into secondary school,athletics wasn't my thing anymore.Kind of regret,really -.- I think athletes are really cool.But I still run in school,anyway.
I didn't want to join cuz I was so afraid of losing.Yes,losing.Feel so silly to think of it now.Winning and losing is part and parcel of life,no? How I wish I realized that long time ago.But its too late now.Too old to train already,anyway.Haha.

Besides,found some Chinese New Year cards given by my friends :D I keep them safe in a box.How I miss those times where we used to give each other greeting cards instead of Facebooking.Some birthday presents given by my friends.To name a few;a pencil holder given by Wai Seng,a wind chimes given by Jo Ann and Kenneth,a glass cup given by Sze Kei,a necklace given by Kirubha,a big pink fat pig given by Wei Leong and Kenneth,notebook given by Mei Jin,photo frame given by Alia.Yeahhh,I keep all of them and I will still keep them.Cuz those to me,are simply precious.Thanks for leaving me such memories.

Also,my class photos collection since form 1.Looking at the photos,how much have we changed and transformed.Started laughing at our innocent appearance.Haha.I think all of us were in our purest form.I like to reminisce the old good times with Choy Ji Ian.Not everyone likes reminiscing.To some,past is past.Not trying to say that we should live in the past but hey,its memories.Something which brought us together and they nvr return anymore aww :(

We had the whole house renovated last year cuz its old,been about 20years I think,the new house is comfortable but somehow,I miss the old house :( When I was small,I lived with my grandparents in a wooden attap roof house in BM and now that they shifted elsewhere,I kind of lost my childhood memories already.I miss the old house.Every corner of the house,is vivid in my memory.And my old kindergarten.These kind of things ... those that made up your past.

2011-07-14T10:06:00.000-07:00

My sister laughs at me for following an elder woman's blog or maybe someone whom she regards as "aunty". Yeap yeap,aunty.. but I learnt so much from her blog.Because of her blog,I feel like going back to God and going to church again.Start reading bibles..stuff like that.I find her words so inspiring.U know,I wasn't trained to go to church since small.I started attending Sun school at 7.For some reasons,I quit after a while.Then around 13 I started going to church again and then,I quit AGAIN.Give me the courage to go back to Him.I really wanna be a pure,true Christian and not just by the name.

On the other hand,I love cooking and often caught watching cooking videos on YouTube haha. I love cooking,really I do! Just that most of the time they don't turn out to be nice for some reasons which I don't really know.Cooking is an art.My grandma's such a great cook.I grew up with those home-cooked love filled food.That explains why I am such a picky eater.But these days..almost everyday actually,we dont get to eat home-cooked food. Thats sad :/ And I have a few friends whose mothers are really great cooks too ! And yeah,I envy them so much! But I don't blame my mother.(Only after Suit Yee's mum convinced me that I shouldn't blame my mum for this) Not that she doesnt want to cook but she's busy working too.Hehe anyway her cooking is not up to the par like my grandma's haha.Sadly,she did not inherit those genes.Haha.I plead to learn to cook.Cuz one day I want to cook for my family.I want to hand pack lunch for my children.I want to impress them with the warmth of home-cooked food which my grandma did! And that,to me,is the most beautiful deed ever.Love u,ah ma.Thanks.

2011-07-14T09:46:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I think I am such a lucky girl.Whenever I am in doubt or in the process of making important decisions,I have friends who spontaneously come up to me and offer some useful advice :) Thank God for those friends.One or two will do,I don't need plenty of them but thank God again,I have quite many of them :) Love u all,though u all might not read this but I am eternally grateful to each and every of u who have guided and will continue guiding me (I hope) throughout my life.

There's only one thing in my mind now-VACATION !!! Ahh I so wanna go for getaways !! Far and away from the busy city to a place where nobody knows me(sound as though I am celebrity haha) and I can walk freely on the streets with no worries.I wish.I long.I hope.

2011-07-13T10:24:00.000-07:00

Hmm... I have a few things in mind :)
1.Melaka trip with Adrian ! Cendol with super thick Gula Melaka ahhhh nice ;)
2.Tutoring can be quite fun only if u're teaching form 4 and 5 students :( I don't know what to do with my form 1 and 2 students seriouslyyyyy T.T and they said I am short in front of Ken Yung who happened to teach them BM :(
3.Just realized my birthday's next week ! :O Thats fast! haha. When u're 19,birthday is just another day.Sad but thats true.Its a process of growing up.But but but honestly I am quite looking forward for my birthday this time around cuz somebody's back from Malacca and promised to celebrate with me on both Wed and Thursday hehe :)
4.Is Snowflake reallly that nice? Why is everyone so gaga over it? Gotta try one day. But I kind of lost trust in friends' comments and food review from the internet after my Japanese buffet and vomiting spree :( and my 30bucks Tutti Frutti which tasted like ... rubbish.

K thats all for now. Tired after tuition. Nights.

2011-07-07T17:33:00.000-07:00

Watched Mr Popper's Penguins with Adrian at Jusco Selatan yesterday. Haha that movie was good lah. Everyone was laughing so hard in the cinema for the entire movie ! But movie is a bit incomplete without soda and popcorn though.Wonder why. Haha. Anyway,obviously Penguin is better than T.(What T?) Transformers. Haha. Yes yes I have something against Transformers. I tried so hard to keep myself awake during the movie I swear. I nvr watched Transformer 1 and 2 and I never liked it. So what more 3? Watched it cuz I am being a nice gf,accompanied Adrian for the movie. Knew he wanted to watch it so no harm la though it was bored la to me haha. But.. some people I wonder.. do they really like Transformers or are they saying it cuz the whole world is watching it?and they just wanna be part of the crowd? Think so. I don't think its good. Yeah its Transformers. So what? Penguin FTW!

Oh just so u know there're a few movies which I never liked.

TWILIGHT AND TRANSFORMERS. Crap =S the two T's.

Waiting for Mr Bean to be out.. !! Monte Carlo seems good too.

p/s: Whether its the new girl or Megan Fox,still.. it sucks man.

2011-07-02T07:23:00.000-07:00

Well,u're one heck of a lucky girl ! What can I say more about her?
Why so unfair -.-

2011-07-01T11:10:00.000-07:00

3more days to buffet oh my god seriously can't wait anymore !!!!!!!!!!
gotta start starving... !! I can smell the california temaki,I can see the chuka kurage waiving at me.. ahhh wait for me darling..3 more days !!!!!
Oh oh oh since I cant sleep..let me just write a little longer.
I went to this English site which provides free English tutorials and stuffs..haha had fun improving my vocabs and pronounciation there..
surprisingly there're many words we usually mispronounced in our lives.. or maybe its just me *blush*
just pointing out a few here.. you dont pronounce sorbet as sor-bet but sor-beyy.
learnt a lot of things there.. :)

I .. always have this kind of "wasted" feelings looking at couples who broke up after so many years together and I wonder will I end up that way too? Love.. funny thing; how it makes us cry and how it makes us laugh the next second.. we never understand but they say,we never lived until we loved.Yerp,true.

Its already the month of July. Lovely month. ;)
Oh met Pn Lee the other day. Still think I am Cochrane's Leo greatest President of all time hahahhaha :P
Think I should sleep now. Going to COTTON ON tmr with Eada. Hope to find something nice there. Its been really long . =) NIGHT.

2011-06-29T09:53:00.000-07:00

Standing Ovation. Something everyone dies for in life. Or maybe its just me.. and you.
Anyway a little update from myself.

1.I been watching football lately to be exact after Msia won the AFF Cup. Cuz they make me feel Msia's football's future is filled with hope again =) The goalkeeper is super duper good,Khairul Fahmi !!!!! Anyway I only watch football when Msia is playing la. Not interested in EPL. Adrian even bought me a Msia jersey,the blue one. GO MSIA.

2.My exam has ended and I am doing nothing at home everyday.Starring at walls,Facebooking,surfing.. things you do. But I do appreciate it though. Knowing I will never have this chance again when I start my degree. Its nice la eating all the time,sleeping and getting out of bed at odd hours :) I think I should find a part time job to support my eating disorder. Had banana leaf with mum this afternoon. Going for Japanese buffet with Adrian soon.

3.A bit out of topic but listening to Secret Garden now.The melody is so sad yet so nice :( I would learn to play the piano just to play this song but I think its a bit too late by now. Age barrier hand already stiffened haha.Starting my guitar and swimming lesson in July.Hopefully I really make it this time!

4. I don't understand why some people can have such nice,caring father in life..
Saw this in Facebook and just want to share it here.
Dad 1 : Close ur book and go chill. I always love u no matter what. If u fail u can blame it on me but I will whack you after that. (Telling this to my fren who's sitting for exam)
Dad 2 : Home is where heart is. (Telling this to my fren who's leaving to study in KL)

5.Having a little disagreement with my friends.Disappointment.Thats all I can say and thats how I feel too.

6.What else? I am fine. Till we meet again. Bye.

CANT TAKE ALL THIS SHIT.

2011-06-09T10:09:00.000-07:00

I hate this house.This LOVE-DEPRIVED home.
My mother's temper is getting worst than ever.Practically we get screamed at for every single thing we do at home.I seriously dont understand my mum.The house's nvr in peace,never! Last time when we had maids she screamed at them and now when we don't keep maids anymore she screamed at us ! She loves screaming so much it seems.
This house felt like a prison to me.
She grumbles when I forgot to turn off the lights and... oh god,I got scolded again when I off the lights !! What the hell she wants?
When we wet the basin we get scolded again. Dude its a basin !! Aint it suppose to be wet?!
She bangs the door loudly.
Just every single thing we do at home.
Just because we keep quiet every time we get scolded,that doesnt mean you can keep doing this to us. We're human okay. Get over ur fucking temper !
I can't wait for exam to over.I'll finish my 3months tuition and then I will head for my grandma's home. I wont return here anymore. Even when I start my degree,I'll do it anywhere but not KL ! SIMPLY BECAUSE I CAN'T TAKE ALL THIS SHIT ANYMORE.
We're ur children. Why be a mother when u cant make a good mother. Dont even bother having kids la then.
Someday when I have my own children,I will never be like my mum !!
Exam's so stressful. :( A-LEVEL SUCKS.
My grandma just went back. I miss my grandma :'( and her dumplings are really niceeee.
Happy Dumpling Festival ! and I love my grandma !

Where's the love in this world?

2011-05-26T11:25:00.001-07:00

Ng Ken Yung,I read back some of my old posts and I realize I miss u a lot but knowing that things will never be the same again.Whatever.You're forever my best friend.
"Sei Kong Yii Xian.Hangus means hangus lah.Go wash your lalang hair la".
Some really meaningful msg!

2011-05-03T05:50:00.000-07:00

Feels so good on the headphone.
This house is seriously too much to handle. ;(
Can't wait to finish my exam and leave,and never want to come back again no matter what.
Spent the weekend at Adrian's house.
Wonderful time,so much of love.
That feels like a family to me,at least.
Told myself,its not necessary to have everything in life.
As long as I have a bf who is right there with me till the end and a bunch of good friends accompanying me,thats more than enough.
Love myself.Love u guys.
Dear Lord,you gave me this kind of family but you gave someone so wonderful like Adrian to me as compensation.Thank you from the bottom of my heart :')

Being M'sian

2011-04-19T01:17:00.000-07:00

Why people like complaining about Malaysians so much?
Whats their problem?
I love the way we are-double parking,procrasinating,tak apa,mamak..yeah cool what.
Why do we have to change ourselves?
Proud to be a Malaysian :)
And I realized I actually looooove Malaysia's education system so much after studying A-Levels :)
Struggle like hell in A-Levels.
Stop critisizing urself ok?
We're proud to be Malaysians :P

2011-04-19T01:09:00.000-07:00

Here for a quick update ! Oh my.. things are really getting more intense than ever with finals coming up in a month time oh myyyyyyyyyyy !!!!!
Study hard Debbie Kong !
Lots of stuffs to be done after exam ie Langkawi trip :P
my dear VVIP,you'll be receiving my invitation soon ok ok :)) no objection,all must go,xie xie :)
Erm life's not that good.My college friends are showing their selfish side to me again.There is this girl,its so obvious;when she needs me she comes to me or she doesn't come to me at all.Hate you lah.But this is life.If little thing like this makes me upset then there's no reason for being happy anymore.So yeah :)
Decided not to ATTEND PROM !!! Reason being,I have enough of them.The moment I finish my very last paper,I do not want to have anything to do with them anymore .. ! And I am so happy its coming so sooon weeee :) but once again,I DON'T CARE.TY.
I just wanna study hard and do well for my exam.The end of the story.
I wanna leave house.I wanna go AIMST!
Tcare all !

And and and just linked one of my lecturers;Mr Anuar Shamsuddin.
Do visit his blog,I find it very aspiring and meaningful especially the words on his header.Got me wondering.Thanks sir!
Visit him at ANUARS58@BLOGSPOT.COM :)

People hurt us without realizing

2011-04-08T09:49:00.000-07:00

Hi.I'm feeling a bit mixed up here.
Celebrated one of my classmate's birthday at Pizza Hut today,rushed for my tuition,had fun chatting with my students during tea break and so amazed by myself when I stopped a cab at Leisure Mall asking the driver to send me to Leisure Mall lol. :)
One day Ken Yung sent me some sms-es saying that I had forgotten about him which I really do not know how to explain to him.Deep in my heart only God knows how much I miss him.He's like my closest buddy back in secondary school and we had so many fond memories together.How can I forgot someone who accompanied me all the way to Mydin under the heavy rain?Will I ever forget someone who lok-loked with me at Pudu every week?Ken Yung,if u happen to see this,please believe me,you're my bestest friend and you're irreplaceable.
I really miss the times I used to cat fight with u in the class and how we used to tease each other short and fat especially when I found out the people in my college cant really take jokes ya.No fun.They are not like my 5U classmates at all :/
So the other day we were discussing what to buy for a friend's birthday and since my that friend is quite ahem plump,I said slimming pills :D of cuz I doesnt mean that la.Its just like how I used to tease Ken Yung about him being fat.And eventually one of my classmates told me,"Debbie,I don't like u.Why are u so rude nowadays?". I was stunned.What did I do?And she said,yeah u tease people all.I gave a HAHA.From there onwards I knew these people all cant take jokes.I didnt bother explaining to her la cuz its up to her la whether to like me or not;I don't give a damn but I'm saddened over it la cuz I treat her like a good friend and we all know how good friends tease each other.So yeah.I kept telling myself that we have to learn to let go;thats how I managed to control my temper.
So yes,college friends are once again hi-and-bye friends.
Thanks for "opening" my heart la anyway.
Talking about today,was excited la cuz I supposed to see someone tmr.
But my mood's like totally off now;
Sometimes when we are deeply in love with someone we sacrifice so much for that one person but do not expect the person to do the same thing towards us cuz thats when we always ended up hurt.A great guy might be a huge,huge part of one's life but not everything.Its true.
I feel real shitty now;wanna release everything here so just bear with it pls.
For instance,I turn down my friends' invitation most of the time when two parties ask me out at the same time.Like ok la I understand;u didnt ask me to do that but yeah..we do stupid stuffs for the person we love;that is why love is blind.DAMN BLIND.
And now,we are changing the whole plan cuz there's basketball tmr.BASKETBALL,I see.The other day was rock climbing and now its basketball.Hmmm.
I left it to u to decide and I thought u'll pick me over bball and nah,I am not mad,I am not,really not.Just disappointed.I think I know where I stand in your heart.
Don't be surprise..small stuffs like this really have big impacts on me.
Why happiness doesn't last ya?
People around me tend to hurt me without realizing but its ok la,hurt me all u want.

P/S:Choy,sorry,really tried to come out from the black hole but it seems people around me are not cooperating with me. ;(

SUCKS TO BE A HUMAN EH?

Of FAITH,HOPE and DESTINY.

2011-04-02T09:21:00.000-07:00

Had some good time catching up with my buddies during dinner just now. =)
Really need to loosen up a little.Been studying like every second every day.
And out of nowhere ytd,I suddenly came up with the idea of naming my two daughters FAITH and HOPE =) I think they are very nice names and most of all,meaningful.
Because I once lost faith in myself,
Because I once lost hope in life,
Hence I wanna dedicate the importance of these two words to my children in the future.
Jayshendra said what better ways to show your children that I love them than giving them such meaningful names.I couldn't agree more with him!!
FAITH and HOPE-two of those things that we,as human beings just can't afford to lose in life.
=) so I told this to my friends while having dinner just now and they were like == why not Destiny for the boy "sarcastically". Hahaha brilliant ! Destiny for the boy then. =)
So Destiny Lim,Hope Lim,and Faith Lim is it.
Told Adrian about it and he was like,"Not fair lah.How come u get to choose all."
Hahahaha bcuz I carry them for 9months?and then he went like where they come from without me u think LOLLLLLLLL this guy..!!! lol one of the reasons why I just love him ;) talked to him and he sounded really exhausted,he just had his friendly match in Skudai.. poor guy,been telling me he's injured here and there every now and then..
I am a bit scared.Human relationship seems so ... fragile.People break off from each other so easily :/ And thank God,I still believe marriage is forever.
Think I am slowly but surely crawling out of the depression zone. =)
God bless. I really wanna get back to God!
A great week ahead everyone!
So my dear children,if u ever wonder why I came up with such names during ur growing up years,pls understand;faith,hope and oh lets not forget destiny,is all we need in life and we simply cant afford to live without them. =)

2011-03-28T01:08:00.000-07:00

Think I am just gonna settle down for Dentistry :)
Have plenty of plans to work out after my final exam.
Thought of taking swimming lesson.
Reason?
I've always loved island and beach holidays but yeah I can't swim so that defeats the whole purpose of going for island/beach holidays in the first place !!
Whats a beach holiday without snorkelling or scuba diving..
So yeah swimming lesson first,hope to master it the fastest in 3months time then wanna go on an island trip with my buddies.. snorkelling !! I await ! :)
Redang,Tioman,Labuan wait wait wait for me..I am coming !!!
On a darker note,exam's getting nearer,its seriously very tiring ;(
and something's bothering my mind..
Apparently some girl is trying to get close to my bf,I dont know for what reason and I believe there's nothing going on between them too but sorry,I just cannot take this,like other girl being so close to my bf.A big no-no.
And I'm not happy with that.
But like what others said,I can stop one but in the future there might be 2,3,4..can I stop all of them?hence it really depends on him la.. I must say,though I'm always looking around but I am damn serious in this kind of thing and lets say u really cheat on me,thats the end man.Cheating to me is like the biggest sin ever,though I might have done it in the past.I repent anyway. XD
Just don't cheat lah y' know.Heard me Adrian Lim Wen Liang?
Life's good.
I await for the day I am waiting for :)

2011-03-24T10:17:00.001-07:00

Cried.Tired.Light.Going to sleep.
Feels good though.

2011-03-24T08:24:00.000-07:00

I've got juniors who did like really well in this recent SPM.
Am happy for them la but at the same time,the old wound is cut open again.
Of SPM,JPA,scholarship..the same old story.Old doesn't mean its been forgotten.Its still here and will follow me the rest of my life.
I've never been jealous of people who are richer than me.
I've never been jealous of people who are prettier than me.
I've never been jealous of people who are better than me.
But I've always been jealous of people who have done better than me in studies.
Simply put this,wealth and appearance do not amaze me but intelligence does.
Who remembers I once got the "Pelajar Terbaik Keseluruhan Tingkatan 1" award?
Who cares about all my "Matapelajaran XXX Terbaik" awards?
Who bothers about the string of A's I gotten for my UPSR and PMR?
Who ever remember how my BM teachers used to praise me throughout the years?
But a student who made the school proud by getting straight A+'s is forever remembered.
Life...
Who even cares about the entire process?Only results matter.
I feel so "pain",reallllly pain.I wish this is those kind of physical pains but its not.Its worst than that.There's no cure to it.And it just keeps bleeding...

2011-03-16T08:40:00.000-07:00

Hi hi hi,I'm really exhausted.Mentally exhausted.
Can't even sleep peacefully.Can't stop thinking what to study next when I sleep.
That defeats the whole purpose of sleeping in the first place ;to run away from reality for a short while.Been studying non-stop and its really mental torturing.I'm motivated la anyway.
I wanna go back to God.As we grow up,there are a few decisions to be made that changes our lives forever.Like I always say,deciding is not the hardest part but having to face the consequences of the decision made after is the toughest part.
I dont know why suddenly I came up with the thought of dropping Physics ;( bless me
Jen Hoe,if u're reading this,hi hi hi,its been nice a pleasure to catch up with you again !! All the best for finalsssssssss !! :) Thanks a lot ! Will catch up with u again after exam haha

2011-03-14T06:46:00.000-07:00

My prayer goes to the people in Japan.Its never ending.At first it was the quake and then the tsunami and followed by the nuclear meltdown :/ Be strong in times of hardship,the people of Japan.
Me here,not that good either.Results just released last Thursday.Haven't been stop studying since that day.Obviously you know why.I thought I could study non-stop and sleep for like,only 2hours a day but in the end I realize,I'm just a normal human being ;'(
I have no time and money to go out anymore after paying that 2k for my exam resits,anyway.
I miss my grandparents.And the two dogs.And my cousins.
Insane,really insane.
I am tired.Just wanna have a nice sleep.
Oh yes,Chong Wei won last night ! Wish I were there,Birmingham to root for him.
Afterall,no matter how much we people like to critisize Msia,we're always proud Msians at heart.Its an undeniable truth.
Peace to the world.Pray for Japan #

2011-03-05T09:06:00.000-08:00

Working my ass hard for finals.
Life's getting more and more tiring than ever.
Giving tuition as usual.Oh yes I have another new student!
So anti-social these days.Cuz I believe.. when you don't give in your heart so easily then one will not get hurt.
So yeap,only bonding with my secondary school friends and Adrian.
Must visit Adrian in Malacca one of these weekends !!!
KL's too bored.

2011-02-24T08:15:00.000-08:00

Hi hi. Its just past midnight. Really sleepy deep inside me but nope,still have tonnes of work to do. Gotta prepare for my lessons tomorrow. They say,human can lose everything in life but just not hope. It already happened on me long time ago.
Its been a shitty week. Bio lecturer caught me red-handed for not bringing lab manual. Oh well :( I don't mind. She's a bit sarcastic yeh. A lot,actually.
Spent 1hour reminiscing the old good times in secondary school with Woan Yng at KPD D today. I miss school so badly. But things change. We don't expect them to stay the same. And we just have to adapt. I don't like that,do you? =[
Oh so proud to hear that we had a 5flat student this year !! Way to go,Cochrane !!
Smart people always inspire me but not the rich nor your preety face.
Life oh life.I am so tired.I don't know how to put this kind of "tiredness" into words.I lost my fighting spirit.
And I haven't felt happiness for a long,long while. I don't remember how it felt like.
Hope keeps us going in life.
When I was in primary school,all I wanted to do was to score 5A's in my UPSR so that I get to go to a good secondary school.Got that.
When I was in form 3,all I wanted was to get a string of A's in my PMR.And I did.
When I was in form 5,all I ever wanted was to excel in SPM and most importantly,secure a scholarship to overseas.But it remained a shattered dream. Should I done a lil better,I might be on a scholarship now and will be leaving to some places to further my studies. Can't forgive myself. A mistake to be regretted all my life.

2011-02-19T19:59:00.000-08:00

Dang,I hate life !
Its a Sunday.Love the calm weather but definitely not my mum's temper!!!
Its getting worst than ever !! I seriously don't know what is wrong with her.Scolded us for closing the lid.Wth? Funny thing,when the maid is around,she scolds the maid and when she's no longer around,we are the one getting scolded.Whats the fuss?Sundays are meant to be peaceful but its worst than weekdays.I wanna leave I wanna leave !!!
Its almost the end of February.Its been hectic;catching up with studies,teaching tuition,sulking and yeap,bearing with my mum's temper which I can't really stand anymore.
Sick of college.Realllllly want it to end asap.I know it will.And it is.June!!!
Its so weird how friends hurt us without realizing and then when they need us they come to us.Hypocrite!!! I've seen too many of this.
I tend to be more anti-social these days.I don't really wanna mix with people anymore because everyone hurts me ;( Sad but its true. I hate being hurt.I love it when I am all alone because I myself know best and I won't hurt myself.College friends.Don't even talk about them.They're barely some strangers to me which I am stuck with for some torturing 16months and I only have 3months left HURRRRAHH !!!
I seriously have no idea where and who to look up to anymore.
No peace at home.So is college.Where on earth is the greener side of the grass that I'm dying for?? I wanna leave home,I wanna leave KL to a place which makes me feel loved and comfortable.A place far far away from these people and the disappointments in life.
Its hard to live with regrets.And I do.JPA.The guilty feeling that continues to haunt...
On a lighter note,we went cycling yesterday.Was a tiring outing and it was fun at first but turned out to be not-a-so-happy-trip at the end of the day.Harshness,I dislike =/
Anyway,cycling down the slope was fun,felt some freedome which I didn't for a long,long time.And animals nvr fail to bring laughters to me.Bcuz they are always in their purest form.They don't cheat and they don't lie.Saw some rabbits,horses and monkeys.Monkey who blinked at me HAHAH.. ;) When is the world gonna end?Human are becoming so inhumane..treating animals as though they're the king on this earth.. I pray.

Sighhhh... when is the day I can finally break free from all this??When? And that shall be the happiest day of my life.

2011-02-14T21:22:00.000-08:00

One of those days where I feel so demotivated.
I feel like vomitting just by looking at my books.
I feel so sick of life,really.
Don't call me an attention seeker cuz I am not !
I am really tired of life !
I hope the world will end in 2012 cuz I feel so tired living in this world.
What is there in this world?
Sometimes,I really cant stand the way how people around me treat me.
Everything is destined the moment we were born.And I was born into this love-lacking family.No one to guide me,no one for me to express my disappoinment and failure in life,no one to love.
And I don't understand why it has got to be me ? !!!
Why is life so fucking unfair?
Everyday I come home,walk straight into the room and sleep.
Its very hard for people with different thinking and ideologies to live together.
Sleeping is the happiest moment to me.There's nothing to worry.All I have to do is to sleep and be happy in my sleep.
You don't have the right to say anything cuz u don't understand ! Try being me for a day and u will know how it feels like.
So sick of everything.
I realize..life has become so meaningless.
People around me tend to hurt me all the time.
Parents who throw tantrum over damn small things almost all the time.
I really don't know who to look up to anymore.
I hate life !
Why it has to be me?
I seen girls expressing disappointments over love in their blogs,"begging" to be surprised by their loved ones and I think that sucks cuz I am also one. Then,I make up my mind. I don't want this to continue. If it doesn't work anymore might as well ends it.
And I really mind for not celebrating Valentine's Day.

2011-02-11T06:51:00.000-08:00

Omg this week's been hectic. Tired la :S
Started teaching tuition today hahah XD
Its a small but really,really warm house. Warm as in so much love !!
I want a mum to hug,to cry on,to complain to,to make coffee for me when I stay up,just like Suet Yee's mum... but sadly reality is always so ugly and cruel.
Each time at Wai Nam's house,I feel the same thing too.
He has the best father in the world.A father who wouldn't mind listening to Korean songs on the radio in his car because his son loves it.And a housewife mum.Meaning home-cooked food and everything well prepared.Wai Nam,you're so lucky !!
My god mother,Phak Onn's mum !! She is those kind of mother that can really joke and is very nice too !! Love her !!
Its all fated the moment I was born. What can I do?
But deep in my heart I really long for family's love and support.
This home is so lack of love.
People coming home banging the door or getting scolded for small things.
Okay,maybe they love us deep in their heart but sometimes,this really isn't the way.
Its ok. Hardship matures me. I'm strong. I may look fragile to you but only God knows how tough am I all the way inside. And I know I'm strong.God sent some kind souls around me too. =) Bless them.

Valentine's Day is coming !!! Roses,teddy bears...lovely !!
Recalled some old memories while in the lrt today.. =)
Don't be sad bcuz it has over but smile bcuz it happened. Yeap. It happened.
Still,hope to bump into u again some day later. If destiny has it.
Wherever faith takes me,I'll just follow. Bless me.
Love.

2011-01-30T02:21:00.000-08:00

Why want to keep all the unhappy stuffs to myself right !!!
Oh yes I am damn unhappy !!!
I hate u for taking me for granted !
When I say something in a nice way,you think I am just joking and don't take it seriously.
Till I get mad,you say I throw tantrums over small things !
HECK?
Ignoring is not the solution but this is what we have been doing all this while !
I always come up with new plans but they never work.
It seems I am always the one giving all the efforts
AND I AM TIRED ! DAMN TIRED !
And I am damn sensitive !

2011-01-27T10:34:00.000-08:00

Last day of exam,finally.
But I am damn pissed off.
At first plan to go back to Penang on Saturday but I changed my mind because of him and oh,what do I get now?
Read girl's mind please. When they say yes u think they really mean yes?
Oh I am damn sensitive,DAMN SENSITIVE !!!!!!!!
HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-01-26T02:13:00.000-08:00

Omg today was really freaky and scary :'(
I never expect this to happen but it happened in the end.I swear this is the first time and also the very last.
I had Chemistry paper today and I thought it was at 6.30pm,the usual time.And so I got up like normal and prepared to be fetched by mum for lunch.
And then... at 1.35pm,Andy called asking where am I cuz his examination docket was with me and I was like,"Oh at home la.Why?"
And he said,"EXAM IS AT 1.50 !!!!!!!!!!!!!"
Omg at that time I seriously wanna break down man... no one's at home and I am not fully prepared yet.. the journey to college takes at least 20mins !!
Called mum and yeah got screwed nicely from her all the way to college la..
Anyway I deserved to be scolded la I don't blame her..
On the way there,all sort of questions came into my mind. "Who to approach?Where to go?Will the invigilators let me in?" Omg that feeling is seriously so scary... I didn't know what to do.When I reached it was already 2.15.Omg 25mins late.
Went into the exam hall and did the best I could.Thats all I can do.
I feel sorry for myself,and mum,who rushed to send and pick me up again after the exam.
And most importantly,none of my friends are bothered to call when I did not show up.
Like I said,Chemistry 4 taught me to be super alert in the future,to be extremely hardworking and most importantly,to distinguish clearly between true friends and hi-and-bye friends in the college.
TRUST URSELF MORE THAN U TRUST UR FRIENDS.
Tq.

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2011-01-23T08:48:00.000-08:00

Exam period is always so stressful yet I managed to sneak out of the house to meet Adrian on Saturday.. eeeee suka !! :)
Oh we went Jusco in the morning to kill time before fetching Ian cuz MRR2 is congested. (FOREVER!! Goverment,when wanna build new highway ni?)
Had sushi as bfast.. =)
Fetched Ian before heading for Mc Donalds..
Headed home.. Like our typical routine :)
Had some heart-to-heart talk with him for like 2hours haha we always do that,just so you know.We talk about anything and everything although he always "menconfusingkan" I with his pilot language. Haha. Yeap,about his friends in Malacca,MFA,even about his friends!! Haha :) Oh soon gotta go home *-* saaaaad :'(
Omg time flies like an arrow.. it felt like he just went to MFA yesterday..those days I spent missing him like crazy when he just started piloting at MFA..oh I still miss him ok!! but ya kind of used to seeing him during the weekends only already.. =) I rmb crying in the car the day before he went MFA..thought I'll be seeing him only like once in a blue moon but actually no la he comes back quite often.. =)
and in a blink of an eye,he'll be graduating in 3months time !!! How fast is that !!!
May all God bless him and he'll be able to land a job asap..
Hi hi dear,if u're reading this..
Happy to see ur dream comes true =)
Quickly get me my LV LV LV LV ok :p
Just happy being with u =) You're already 3/4 of me.
And its been 1437th days already.. 1+4+3+7=I LOVE YOU FOREVER :D
we'll be walking together till the end.. :)
love u !
omg okay better get back to work now.. exam !!

Anyway.. my heart been aching lately.. sometimes its real painful. I mean real pain,not the heartbroken type okay haha I think I should seek a cardio omg its so pain again now :/
Anyway anyway.. this world is so huge and its not easy for 2 person to meet each other what more to get together.. people call it "fate" or "destiny".. so appreciate ur other half ok?

2011-01-21T00:04:00.001-08:00

Oh come on people leave Facebook and lets revive blogspot!!
Waiting for the day I can finally play wedding dress on the guitar !!!!!

2011-01-20T13:35:00.000-08:00

Oh pffffft I feel so damn tired that I wanna run off to somewhere far far away right now !!!
The past 2weeks were crazy;3hours sleep per day,sleeping in the morning when everyone else wakes up,sitting for exam even on public holiday,just plain madness !!!
And yet..the real challenge has yet to come ! Bio 4,C3,Physics 4,and Chem 4 coming up next ! Shot me ba. New year shopping not done,dont know what I gonna wear on new year :(
Pimples,eyebags growing like mushrooms sprouting after rain on my face.
My organs... kidney,liver,arghh been restless too lately.
Didn't know Edexcel love torturing us like that.
Miss Adrian. Wanna dump everything here and visit him in Malacca tmr.I wish !!
Jan's mission all failed ! Its 5.32 in the morning,am realllly tired but what can I do huh?
Welcome to life.. =)
Worry not,I don't give up easily !
Feel like going back to church again !

2011-01-16T14:06:00.000-08:00

Ahhh screw all the emo life,I am back to rock !! :D
Luck is on ur side when u smile :)

2011-01-16T13:14:00.001-08:00

Omg some guys are just worth dying for!!! I think I am back to normal !!

2011-01-16T11:54:00.000-08:00

Omg..I read back all the emails Adrian sent to me a few years ago,when we started dating la actually..
omg they're so so so sweet..
but sadly we dont do that anymore huh nowadays? :(
last time u said I looked so cute when I cry but now u said i look ugly when I cry wth!! haha
Meet guys.Before and after marriage.Lol